Realizing how deep, buried emotion being released is transcendent and brutal.
I’m unsure of what came over me last week. Was it my hyper-awareness of self or was this a chemical imbalance that altered the intensity of response? For the first time, in an extensively long time, I was flooded with emotion. And I truly mean, flooded. For the course of a few days, a very deep earthquake happened within me and rattled my core. My body responded appropriately by breaking down into tears and grieving.
Revelations have been occurring much more frequently as I’m beginning to become more mentally present.
“Why Buddhism Is True” is a book I’m currently going through and the teachings behind being present and the awareness of self and not-self and the contradictory statements that limit our means of expression/understanding are fucking with my thoughts. I’m readily confused, but I’m intrigued.