Muse.

This past weekend, my tattoo artist, Angel came to visit me in Scottsdale.

Background: Angel has been the only person to tattoo me (aside from my first simple tattoo on my left forearm, which he proceeded to entirely redo and claim as his own), he’s also known me since before I left for the military. Over time we developed a unique relationship, which he deems us muses. We are muses to one another, we are not simply friends, but we are not lovers. We’re in the fine grey space between those two.

This unique visit had him travel to myself, versus the opposite. As we put one another under a microscope and took a step back to view the other’s life, we shared our insights with one another. Note, these are observations, sometimes advice, but always constructive.

He expressed his view of my tension as a whole, my sullen tunnel vision, and brilliance I’ve developed into while being on my own.

Due to this, I need to refine myself once more. For myself. This is all I have for now.

Life Update.

Well, it’s been exactly one month since I’ve posted anything here from my most recent events, family visits, and work changes that have occurred for myself.

And now it’s time to share.

On the 6th of September, I showcased my photography for the first time with RAW Phoenix. The showcase was brilliant and unique, the multitude of artists and creatives held together in one room to present themselves and network was something I never dreamed I’d be able to be a part of.

Positive: The kind creatives whom wanted to collaborate and truly appreciated the work I did.

Negative: I was unable to be present for the opening of the doors and initial set-up, so my parents presented for me (which was obvi cute) but I hate that my shift was shitty and I ended up having to stay on the unit.

Following, the next few days my parents stayed in town to visit with me and simply relax. We explored some areas downtown, watched some movies, met with family we hadn’t seen in such a long time. There was also a sports game on that Sunday, so I naturally watched that but don’t recall any bit of it.

Once my parents left from their visit, I literally slept for an entire day and a half to recover due to the work, family visiting, and event.

As a whole I’m beyond thankful for the opportunity to present myself in the showcase. It not only allowed me to present my creative self in a way that I’ve never done before, but it’s helping me to refine and edit that expression. Hindsight, there are a multitude of changes I’d make to that event, and now I can take all those notes and use them to press forward.

Photo Printing Studio.

Today, I set foot in first photo printing studio. 

Precursor, I've been scouted for a showcase here in Phoenix as a photographer - the first time anything like this has ever happened. I received an e-mail that I'd been noticed via Instagram, which I've re-read multiple times because I didn't believe it. I responded letting them know my interest, and submitted my formal application to the show. And here I am.  A nervous and ecstatic insane individual. 

Prior to this, I've never been asked to display my work, really anywhere. I've received notice from other creative souls who've said my work is good, and I've always taken that to heart. Those creatives are the first people I told when I found out about this opportunity. And now, now I need to display myself. 

I don't think I've ever been as nervous as I have when I set foot inside that photo printing studio. And I did it, and now I'm ordering my prints. 

This year I decided to take myself truly serious as a photographer. I invested in the camera I wanted and most importantly, I decided to invest in myself.